Contrasting Comparison

Happiness is with in me.
Hope comes from the darkest places.
We sing about agony only to add contrast to our beautifully orchestrated life.
Silence brings thoughts to the point it may be overwhelming.
Only through silent hours has it taught me not to fear.

I believe love comes from the isolation we cant bare.
When you know what its like to be alone.
You will learn how to love and to be loved.

Its much like a blanket constricting you.
At first you enjoy being warm but later ask the question why do I want warmth.
So you part from the shelter that was hiding you away.
Walk four paces open that door only to find your self lost in a storm that would tare the warmth from within.

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Every journey is taken with one foot in front of the other. By each helping hand you may accomplish something more then you will realize, something priceless. Every step to every drop may lead you a wiser man. As time makes its revolution the numbers prove to be meaning less because am still standing. From the breeze that crosses my path to the sound of ocean near I push forth.

When in the wild it must take your comfort but through it all proves you to be a better man. I cross bodies of water to nothing but a drop. My thirst grows fierce to the point my skin would crack. Miles lead me to where the cold would freeze every drop of liquid. My muscles would clench when ever the bitter moment of air would cross my path. my body began to shake uncontrollably to the point I couldn't keep my jaw still.

A path that death stalks I take my courage and leave my needs.

Last Night

lights were off all I heard was the gun shoot. All I saw was the flash that lite up the market like a match does a room. When I woke the blurred memory's of your descent your fall keep rolling in my mind. It felt so much like a dream yet these memory's ignite thoughts that make me wonder. I went on a drive missing you as usual.

when I went in to the local convenient store my heart stopped when I got to the door. your voice followed me, that's when my world ended. My mind racing with questions, praying for disbelief. As my stumble through me out of the door the pain in my gut made me blind. Numb to reality, I called each ring my heart dropped.

I thought how heartless your killer was remembering your child's smile. Your fall ran through my head again I was numb but I felt my world and I part. There's no going back. My hands start to shake for once my legs don't have the strength to stand, at the bottom my knees meet concrete. There as my world and I part I remember the angle I once knew.

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I feel alive when I am nearly dying.
Smiles may come with tears dropping my own insanity.
Lack of air makes me flop like a fish on the bottom of a fisherman's deck.

Stars come across the dark vast sea withholding the universes far far away. Blood drenched skin, eyes to bestow that visible spin with my stomach tumbling rocks. I stare up into that vast sky with out the words to ask why.

When I was young I used to ask god for everything I couldn't comprehend.

My prayers never answered, my questions never received. Now I see knowledge is a key as each steep to be a locked door.

The sun rolls over those mountains bringing heaven to this gloomy valley.
Through our dedication to push through these days the birds sing joyously.
So breath in this oceanic air.
Life my become dependent but when your lung breath so independently have hope.
I held the world in my hand and gave it back to gravity.
When wight becomes a burden to bare let it free,
Intel you have the strength to carry on.

Its Hard To Breath.

The one who told me she`d wait a life time. Two weeks have past and I can fell her inpatients. Yet I never said I was perfect and never was I. In fact I am the weakest vulnerable soul to know. I never have the courage to be cruel but through my stress my frustration speaks so clearly. I am a Caterpillar waiting for its cocoon because from down here the leaves seams so far from my grasp.

I am weak, soft, hard to be alive when your constantly drowning every few times solid ground learns to collapse. I am always wrong, always incorrect I am always falling off these cliffs you set in place. I wish more then anything I could be perfect for you but its becoming impossible when I cant read your mind.

I can say sorry tell my lungs forget to breath but in the end its never enough. You deserve only the best and apparently my hardest will never be enough.

Life Drifts

Life sets sail the mast may rock forth and back, but the tiller stands strong. The ocean is vast better drop anchor and get it correct before you find your self collapsing. The water may be warm, you make your comparison. This voyage is timeless there is a lot of hope and hopeless but in the end you never know when your going to hit that dead end. Just know this grease your barrings and let it roll by fast never holding your self in the past. I see the whales and critters rowing there way on by with the distraction of this lust of this love. Just hold my hand and we will paddle on in to the moonlight. Baskets of worries with your daily hurries. Rushing to pushing your self tell you cant breath. You will find your self drifting in the sea.