Jordynn

To me you may not be perfect, but the more I know of you perfect doesn't seem like enough.

You've been growing within me for some time to the point you've attached among my thoughts, dreams and memories.

Theres nothing I could ever ask for that would amount to the day I met you.

Ive seen our past played back to the point I laughed.

I see the future at the end of the world seeing it all, with you.

I live the present

With in your arms I could conquer mountains as far as the eye could see.

Ive gone from lost, from the shell Ive hidden away in.

Then you came, found me, exposed and made me bright again.

Now I drowned in my own success, never was it achieved but found within the universe among countless stars.. among countless souls there was you and I.

Nighmares

So many mistakes I have made they pile up like death, an avalanche waiting for you to slip. Every misplaced step I took leads me here lying in my memories reversing only to play back in my head. Every sound smell, feeling as vivid as the next to the point the motion makes me spin. Dreams that haunt sane men. Eyes close to hide what might appear within the dark shadows that plague my mind as quick as the lives it took.
I am growing old with time falling quicker than sand. The faster I run it seams the further I must go. The drum beats slow the pressure increases as everyone looks with judging eyes. Counts of three go tossing through my strings. A pulse sets in motion as tiny vessels set course. I hear The water swaying, moving only to crash against the foreign object that sets course to a helpless voyage. I am barley standing and hardly sitting.
Freedom has never felt so lonesome or so cold when the wind blows oceanic air.

dsbn

I am the leaf that blows in the wind I am the silent autumn forest, I am the mountains tall and wide. I am nothing to the mortal man money greed and dreams are only what I see. My heart lays with the soil only a body organ to be thrown aside when I am done. Love is all but yet greed always overcomes.We are moved by automobiles to caskets carried by four wheels all the same. We are trapped with in our selfs growing more selfish as the days rotate calenders.

to fly

To fly you must lift your self from it all. Free your self from the hectic reality we call are life and prep those wings for flight. Because in this world we forget our inner child franticly trying to smile, laugh and scream. Its never easy to let go of the stress that runs our emotions, but when you take a step back and breath its seams as though time is never in a rush. I have paced back and forth tell my thoughts through me on my ass. You may never get rid of your thoughts but there has always been a way to find your self around them.

So to fly pick your tears up and forget the regrets that constantly hold you back move forth with all desire to feel the wind beneath your feet.

Unwelcome

I try so hard to matter but still I stand to be nothing. The burden you make me believe I am. never have I felt so unwelcome I know your young and you don't know what your saying. These past few week ends have me going home wishing for the end wishing for my funeral to begin. Each time you speak i am breathlessly defeated, I just pray some day you can be understanding.

You make me feel as though I am nothing and if I was existing a burden on society. My love for you has me running with broken limbs that wish to no longer continue, but so long as your in my sights my heart continues to beat. Your love hurts to receive because I know I am unworthy. From day one I took it as a blessing for you to be in my life and to this day it remains the same. I keep praying for your indicating actions or your dictated words to stop bringing harm, but when I look into your eyes I see the pain your trying to convey.

Love to be a mystery a mixture of ecstasy and agony. I have tried but with all effort I fail with all my heart I can no longer go on when ever I fail there is no reassurance. I have had three strikes I am not a father or a husband because in your eyes I must be perfect but I am only a mortal man. Your asking of me to be god when I do not bare faith.

Unwelcome is what I feel a burden is what I am, alone must be.

Does It Hurt When I Say Goodbye?

Does it hurt when I say goodbye? Tell me when I go up into flames will you remember my name?
Oh dearest love oh fondest memory. Do tell me are your words true or just an incorrect sentence repeated on and on. Do you love the man who dies and lives for you.

Does it hurt when I say goodbye? Tell me when I go up into flames will you remember my name?
Oh dearest love would you save your breath it is a lie that must not be shed. I know all to well your eyes bleed of impatience. Your beauty may bring you fame but beneath those eyes I see the pain you are soon to bring. Deep in the dark hole, the pit of sorrow I know is the acceptance I must win.

Does it hurt when I say goodbye? Tell me when I go up into flames will you remember my name?
Say it so, I would hear your truth. Is it all to be wrong Is it all to be loathed? I trust within my self the sky to be blue and the clouds to be white. For I must be brave when I am in love with you.

Does it hurt when I say goodbye? Tell me when I am gone will you carry on my name? In fire and flames I seam to remember your game. Oh dearest will you love a helpless man. Say it true with your heart to be your speech. Now reach within and do tell...

Does it hurt when I say goodbye?

Within Another

The key to her heart lies within another. Someone who tests my patience who`s cry is as common as the wind blows, someone that teaches me day by day the art of clear deliverance. I am not perfect I break too I am not always right but stubborn to the walls content. If the key to your heart lies within someone els I will bring it out with a laugh a smile the expressions you have devoted your life too. I am not the quickest but in the end I come around knowing right from wrong.

The mass amount of apologies can cover a few mistakes but never will it correct my wrong doings. I will push forth with a deferent force although I was never destine for success I will do my best. Lonesome can be fearsome with the courage I will make it through. If it is true ship me off in the sea so deep and blue. If your words are pure I will always be among the stars and sky.

I have see black to florescent green I will survive I will succeed. Never have I fallen to the point I cant return. For you I will devote my life to the key of your heart if you wish your locks to be open. I stumble when I speak but in your arms my actions speak so clearly.

With repetition we will learn to succeed.